I met my dear and talented friend Sam Katz (an upstate NY native) while at school at SUNY Oswego. We got along swimmingly and talked about collaborating for a while, she said she had a song that she was willing to invite me on and I sat in her dorm for a few hours while we jammed, inspired by the song she presented to me, to write about a crumbling relationship and the feelings of lonesomeness and longing that go with that. Musician and music major Kyle Wodzicki recorded the song in his dorm room. Kyle Crowell directed and produced a music video for this song. Sam later released the original edition of this song on her fantastic and heartbreaking debut album "The People We Know" which you can find on her soundcloud page!
SAM
Your body's warm
when you lie next me
but i am sure
that the only thing that's
keeping me from falling
is there inside
the way you turn
you never reach for me
and I'm concerned
that you don't wanna be
anything like the way
I wanna be
chorus:
and I don't know what I'm waiting for
when you still don't know what you're looking for
and all these silly thoughts that come inside my mind
I turn them blind
I turn them blind
I turn them blind
AllOne:
Life's been lonely, eyes are closing,
blind and groping, I am hoping,
to find a homely, kindly glowing,
light to show me it'd like to hold me
but I've been only, aligned to groaning,
sighed echoing in an abyssal distance,
I can sense it, an abysmal emptiness
chiseled malicious within our amicable friendship.
I'm a miserable wreck when meticulously sifting
through the dismal dead hints
critically through every sentence.
Each paragraph I pair in half
and I have a graph I'm staring at
to seek adhesive treasure,
then I piece each patch of pleasure
in our speech and even gestures
and weave them back together,
snuggled deep in panicked efforts,
to deceive my demon's temper,
and retrieve some pleasing tender
eager relief remembered,
to achieve being a member
settled peacefully in Eden's center.
As I lie by myself and meekly shiver in this position, though I know better,
I lie to myself of our weakened differed disposition, though we'll get no better.
SAM:
Well baby, I
I saw something in you
you didn't try
to be someone you knew
and I am all out of flaws
for you to choose
so run away
never look back again
don't try to say
that you are innocent
cause I am tired
my heart is spent
chorus:
and I don't know why I even try
when I'm so obviously not on your mind
and if you never thought that I would walk away
I couldn't stay
I couldn't stay
I couldn't stay
AllOne:
She couldn't stay, I stained her with disdain,
if you strain to push too great to try to make
them fall in love they just fall away and then walk the same.
Though they awfully ache from how often pain's
endurance begs this quill turn all it's ways,
I cross in vain my fingers that I'll cross paths with her,
I crossed her once, and we withered,
because she couldn't endure,
so we parted ways,
I hope one day we'll cross our legs,
while we lay, limbs warm.
But its so far obvious, we're polar opposites and
no bother how hot she is, this pillow is still cold.
My lids closed, shut to cry, though cut and dry,
I run and hide, feeling something like
I'll erupt inside, I justify “I'll adjust if I recognize
magnetism does require antonyms”
And although attractive it's looking bad
that I'll acquire a chance again.
Although we need each opposed pole to adhere,
My eyes are still sewn closed and I fear,
opening them both because it's so clear,
Rip Van Winkle, will wake to wrinkles in the sheets she left here,
I'll just inhale her perfume that hangs in the dead air,
and solemnly hang my head there
(a spent response, my silhouette imparts
the image of a question mark that truly represents my heart. )
chorus:
and I don't know why I even try
when I'm so obviously not on your mind
and if you never thought that I would walk away
I couldn't stay
I couldn't stay
I couldn't stay
Left-field rapper, slam poet, singer/songwriter, and author Bruce Pandolfo from Long Island.
Creating to connect. Obsessively exploring and creating art as healing and growing.
Deeply vivid/introspective lyrics populate this ambitious folk rock project. The arrangements span from mellow/minimal to rocking and grandiose. Consistently emotive, unique and sincere. Brilliance. AllOne
Progressive yet punk, aggro yet emotional. One of my favorite bands from Long Island and doing everything they can to live up to their name, raising money for causes and making badass music, AllOne
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I have been listening to variations of this album a long time. I remember I was living in a cardboard dumpster when some young guy was like yo dude it's gonna rain come crash on my couch. He played The Many Faces of Oliver Hart for me. I fell in love, I set my favorite track as Rain because we looped it when the rain came. That was one of the early acts of kindness I received in the nearly 20 years I've been homeless. @NomadRoamsFree